把姐姐给卖了吧！

姐姐总爱抱着妹妹睡觉但是妹妹却不喜欢，她喜欢自在地睡觉。姐姐想通过抱抱来表达爱意，妹妹不领情还很生气地向我投诉“妈咪，你看姐姐。。我很讨厌她。。我不喜欢她抱我！” 唉。。。我就说“那。。好吧。。我们就把姐姐给卖了吧，就卖25仙吧！” 我这么地一说，妹妹立刻回应”不。。不。。我不要卖掉姐姐。。我只不过想要她乖乖而已。。”
孩子就是孩子，他们不像大人，思想思维是多么地简单单纯，有话直说，不勾心斗角。大人复查多了，思想思维复查，话中有话，勾心斗角，你争我夺，没完没了。
在这一次的小插曲，我看到的是孩子比我这个做妈妈的还要优秀！她们勇于表达爱意，勇于表达自己内心的思想和情感，敢爱敢恨。喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢，就是那么地简单。
我想学习我的女儿们那样，勇敢地表达自己，不再让别人牵着鼻子走，活得漂亮，活得自在，活得精彩！祝福我吧！

感恩的心

这些菜园蛋看起来很普通，和菜市场里卖的没什么两样。。但是，对我来说勿轻情义重。那是带着爱心关心细心的菜园蛋。为何我会这样说呢？？那是因为给我这些蛋的人和我是没有血缘关系但是且把他辛辛苦苦饲养的鸡孵出的蛋给了我，一毛也不收。曾经和他太太帮我照顾女儿们的保姆保爸如今已年长，满头白发的他们天天唯有种种菜种种果树再也无法帮我照顾孩子。虽然如此，我们一得空就会到他们家去深望他们。和他们终是有说不完的话，他们也终是有给不完我们的东西例如食物，食材等等。他们每次下厨煮他们的拿手菜肴都会叫我们到他们家用餐，辛辛苦苦耕种的蔬果菜都会分享一些给我们。这种的恩惠是无价的，是珍贵的，是难得的。。所以，我们很珍惜他们，非常地感恩他们那种无私的爱，很真诚的爱。我希望孩子们和他们一样懂得付出懂得什么是真诚的爱，无私的爱。也同时和我们一样懂得感恩。懂得感恩的孩子最幸福！

女人，30岁以后

女人活到30岁以经历过岁月和智慧的鉴定。30岁以后，可说是另一端的新旅程。一些选择了穿上便服在家相夫教子变成了黄脸婆，担任全职妈妈。一些则选择了把家事及育儿委托以别人，全程投入创业变成了女强人。不管选择如何，大家渴望在事业，家庭以及生活上达到一个平衡点。我们，女人，当然要活得更精彩，更漂亮成为更有身价，更有魅力，优雅从容的女人。而我，很简单。。选择了做好自己，做好以下事项。

• 坚持天天喝1~2升水

       可保持身体活力又能滋润皮肤。

• 吃好食物

       所谓好食物指的是全天然，无加工食品。饮食必须多样化。不吃重口味的饮食，不吃垃圾食品，不吃隔夜饭菜。坚持吃新鲜食品。

• 每晚按时入眠，起床不必急

       定时入睡7~8个小时，养好精神面对明天。

• 抽时间做有气运动

       每天步行或做大运动，出出汗，增加心肺血管活力。

• 保持稳定的理想体重

       因年龄增长，新陈代谢缓慢，必须慢速和持久的减肥。健康式减肥法为本，不服用任何减肥药或产品。

• 保养不可懒

       每天做好保湿和防晒的程序。

• 重视外表，不求时尚但求品味

       要懂得挑选适合自己的衣物，不一定要名牌但要让自己看上去优雅动人。学习一些搭配小窍门，颜色搭配的技巧，关注自己的身材可利益充分展示自己的优点，遮盖自己的缺点。维持外表不一定是为了男人，也是为了自己变得更有自信，更有人缘。

• 每年都做一次妇科检验

       没病心安，有病早治。

• 穿好的内衣，穿好的平底鞋

       不可亏待自己的身体结构，不只要穿好的内衣及鞋，也要穿得对。

• 经济独立，想买什么就买

       不管老公有多少钱，养不养得起你，再辛苦都要有自己的事业，都必须经济独立。

• 考个驾照，买一辆车

       自己驾车，想去哪里就去，方便别人也方便自己。记得要为自己和爱车买保险。

• 经营好家庭

       女人最大的成就是经营好家庭。把家事处理得井井有条，懂得煮几道功夫菜加上甜点，这是为人妻，为人母亲最基本条件。

• 每年至少旅行一次

       地点不重要，和谁都可以。好好地放松心情，充充电。

• 读好书，写写文章

       女人真正的美来自于内涵。一本好书不只是传达知识和讯息，它也能让我们过一种心智生活。从写文章来表达自己的想法是一种锻炼自己的心智，坦然面对人生。

• 言行举止要优雅

       不粗语粗俗，不大吼大叫。姿态要优雅，说话要得体。

• 最少有俩位无话不谈的知心朋友

       要和密友保持联络。

• 不断提升自己

       不管在什么领域，不断地突破自己的极限。

• 定期给自己独处的时间

       做一些喜欢的事，让自己独自静下心来，好好地放松自己。这有助于减轻生活的压力，重新认知自己。

• 抛弃不懂得珍惜你的男人

       无论一个男人条件有多好，无论你有多爱他，不懂得珍惜你的男人是绝对不能带给你幸福！

When You Have A Baby

When you have a baby, many things change.
You behave like a Big Baby, do silly things you never did before.
You make funny faces just to make little ones laughs.
You make even funnier faces or perhaps weirder faces just to make her laughs even happier.

You sing lullaby to her and she is your first audience.
Even with a hoarse voice, you still sing to her.
Trying hard to recall every childhood song that you had learnt, just to sing to her.
Then, you start to sing with silly movement, which make both of you laugh.

When the little ones make coo-coo sound, you follow her to coo.
You coo non-stop, silly enough to make her thought that it must be a "Magic word".
You smile by just looking into her eyes and you laugh when she smiles at you.
Every single little action she did, you give her an "over-reacted" big applause.

When you have a baby, this is how silly you could be.
Silly enough to make you and her happy without a reason.
Oh God, isn't it wonderful!
To have a little ones around!

人生观点

读了一遍文章，觉得很有意思。希望女儿能读到此遍。


（一）对你不好的人，你不要太介怀。在你一生中，没有人有义务要对你好，除了我和你妈妈。对你好的人，你一定要珍惜、感恩。
（二）没有人是不可代替的，没有东西是必须拥有的。看透了这一点，将来就算你失去了世间最爱的一切时，也应该明白，这并不是什么大不了的事。
（三）生命是短暂的，今天或许还在浪费着生命，明天就会发觉生命已远离你。因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也会愈多。与其盼望长寿，倒不如早点享受。
（四）爱情只是一种感觉，而这感觉会随时间、心境而改变。如果你所谓的最爱离开你，请你耐心地等待一下，让时间慢慢冲洗，让心灵慢慢沉淀，你的苦就会慢慢淡化。不要过分憧憬爱情的美，不要过分夸大失恋的悲。
（五）虽然很多有成就的人没有受过太多的教育，但并不等于不用功读书，也可以成功。你学到的知识，就是你拥有的武器。人可以白手起家，但不可以手无寸铁，紧记！
（六）我不会要求你供养我下半辈子，同样的我也不会供养你的下半辈子。当你长大到可以独立的时候，我的责任已经完结。今后无论你坐巴士还是奔驰，吃鱼翅还是粉丝，都要自己负责。
（七）你可以要求自己守信，但无法要求别人也守信；你可以要求自己对他人好，但不能期待人家也对你好；你怎样待人，并不代表人家就会怎样待你，如果你看不透这一点，只会给你增添不必要的烦恼。
（八）我买了26年的六合彩，还是一穷二白，连三等奖也没有中过，这就证明人要发达，还是要努力工作才可以，世界上并没有免费的午餐。
（九）亲人只有一次的缘份，无论这辈子我和你会相处多久，你一定要珍惜共聚的时光，下辈子，无论我们爱与不爱，都不会再相见。

嫁妆

记得有一天在网上看到一条钻石项链，那是一条非常美丽的钥匙项链，第一件事就是想把它买下，准备送给以后21岁生日的女儿虽然女儿如今才6岁！！那条项链可是Tiffany and Co. 的产品，当然价格不菲！心想我有三名可爱的千金，那我应该买三条项链，一人一条才公平。但是，我可没有那么多钱呀！一条我都买不起啊！

这时突然想起妈妈在我出嫁前所说过的一番话“女儿，妈妈什么都给不了你而唯一能够给你的是教育，你最好，最华丽，最有价值的嫁妆便是这些年来我给予你的教育”。当时，年少的我只能铭记在心里。

从相识，结婚至今已有三名女儿，经历了不少的风风雨雨当然也有雨过天晴的日子，让我在生活上的不同阶段成长了许多，逐渐领悟妈妈那番话隐藏的含义。

想成为一位在事业上以及家庭中的佼佼者可不是一件简单的事。不管什么性别，在于知识，态度或身心上都必须达到一定的程度。知识，避免不了是成功的首要条件，而拥有好的态度以及好的身心是取得知识最基本的必备条件。所以，不管是在于规范教育，家庭教育或是身教都不能忽视。

教育，对我来说是世上最庞大，杀伤力最强的武器。教育，可说是无害又能说是有害的武器。对的教育，它能让这个世界变得更美好而错误的教育，它能把这个世界在一瞬间变成地狱。

对或错误的教育不是你或我的定义就是正确的。不同的父母，不同的孩子，不同的家庭背景就会产生不同的教育。错以对纯粹在于各人不同的观点，没有所谓的正确教育方针。

而我，想像父母那样，不只是教孩子读书写字，家庭教育便是时时刻刻，有意无意地进行着。恭敬，礼义廉耻是我们家中首要的家庭教育。我也想像父母那样，一点一滴，慢慢累计，直到一天把“教育”当成嫁妆送给女儿。我深信那会是最有意义，最有价值的嫁妆！

原来幸福也可以很简单

有时候会问自己到底我怎样的生活算不算是幸福呢？特别是当我独自一人照顾小孩而丈夫忙着做工直到深夜才回家。心里总是想着为何这么不公平，我也要上班的啊，为何总是我要赶着回家照顾小孩和打点一切大小事务呢？？心想如果有个佣人那有多好啊！但是，家里多了一位陌生人，我会很不自在。也不想因为有了佣人孩子变得娇生惯养。如果小孩的衣食住行都是佣人一手包办，那么我可不是错过孩子的成长过程？？看来家务和照顾小孩的事还是亲力亲为来的好！

有时候看到男士送花送礼物给女士，我都会在想如果我老公也懂得送花送礼物的话，那是有多么的浪漫，那我就会是世界上最幸福的女人。但是，结婚以来那么多年，老公从来没有买过一朵花或任何礼物给我，这比起拍拖时还要糟糕。拍拖时，老公还会买花买礼物哄我开心，难道婚后就不需要这些甜蜜的举动吗？？回想过去，老公根本不是一位浪漫的男人，也就是因为他不够浪漫，是一位很老实的男人，也不会甜言蜜语不会拈花惹草的个性深深吸引了我。就好像，妈妈形容他为快要绝种的恐龙一样！所以，如果要把送不送花或礼物来衡量幸不幸福，那是有多么肤浅的想法啊！

后来又想，有钱是不是就是幸福啊？？能住在大洋房，驾大汽车，想买什么就买，想出国旅行就出，那算不算幸福呢？？有钱真的很好，有钱万事通！深入一层的思考，钱其实是一个很可怕的东西！它能让一个人丧心病狂，它能让一个人贪得无厌，它能让一个人变得无情无义，慢慢地把你变成魔鬼！看来财富和幸福根本扯不上瓜葛

那幸福到底是什么？？幸福是一种什么样的感觉？？它的味道是怎样的？？

直到那天晚上，像平时一样，我下了班，赶着载孩子回家后便开始在厨房下厨。下厨时，不轻易地听见老公和女儿的对话。俩父女竟然在那儿打情骂俏！那一刻，感觉很幸福！！原来幸福是这样的。对我来说，幸福就是当一件很不耀眼，很简单的举动都能让你在心里甜蜜蜜地偷笑，嘴角很自然地往上扬，那就叫做“幸福”！

而幸福的感觉和味道就好像当外面下着倾盆大雨时，你和你心爱的人在一间温暖的家中享用着热乎乎，香喷喷的私房菜，让你觉得很安全，很温暖，很舒服。。原来，幸福也可以很简单！

爱，要及时！

外婆离开了我们已有73天，还是很想念外婆。回想起那段外婆入院的日子，心里还是很心酸。那时，我只知道我不能“遗憾”所以，我择时放下我的工作和孩子，独自一人回家乡。在医院外婆一身扎满了喉管，医生为她注射药物好让外婆好好地休息。每一天来回医院不觉得辛苦，只希望外婆能够好起来。大家都很乐观也互相鼓励及安慰对方，但。。我知道也感觉得到大家都做了最坏的打算！大家一直说服自己，不停地为自己洗脑，不愿让负面的想法及举动出现。在爸妈和亲戚们的脸上，我看到的只有忧伤，但是没有一人落泪，大家都很坚强！

害怕外婆没有动而造成血液不循环所以我和小弟轮流帮外婆按摩和说说话。虽然外婆无法回答我们但是我知道外婆是听得到的。那按摩的感觉我还记得，手脚都是冰冰的，那是有史以来第一次也是最后一次帮外婆按摩！每次按摩心里都在想“不应该是这样的，外婆应该是健健康康享受着按摩，地点和时机都错了！！”很后悔没有好好地为外婆生前做过什么！

刚巧在我和小弟帮外婆按摩的时候，药性过了，外婆的眼睛睁开了一下，手指动了一下，我和小弟很兴奋，立刻跟外婆说“阿嫲, 我是阿钰，我回来看你，你不用怕，没事的”阿嫲看一看我，无法回答无法说话的她，眼泪直流，我再也忍不住了，我也落泪了。。不想让家人，让阿嫲收我影响，我冲去则所，偷偷地哭，收拾好心情再回到ICU看看外婆。外婆尝试把喉管拔掉，妈妈立刻阻止，看了真的叫人鼻酸。

好多年没有和妈妈同睡，但是那几晚我和妈妈都没有睡好。我知道妈妈根本睡不着，我假装睡着了，目的是为了偷偷地看看妈妈是否会偷偷地哭泣。自从外婆进院，妈妈没有睡好也没有吃好。妈妈是我最担心的，怕她生病，怕她撑不下去，怕她伤心过度。妈妈因为超劳过度曾晕倒过一次，还撞伤了头。我一直很留意妈妈的一举一动，一直留意着她的身心。一切都稳定了，我便返回怡保。我天天还是会打电话给妈妈问问外婆的情况但是外婆的病反反复复，时好时坏，大家的心情就像外婆的病情。一时是希望满满的，一时是忧愁不已。

回到怡保的第三天凌晨便接到妈妈的来电，说外婆已经走了。。。一大早回到办公室打点一切大小事务后便带着女儿们搭飞机回家乡。回到家乡已经是晚上11.30但我还是带着女儿们来到外婆的灵前为外婆上一炷香。妈妈爸爸和亲戚们都很好，我也放心了。在这五天内，许多的亲朋戚友都来到。南川师父来到念经说法给我们听，很感谢他们！老公也在外婆出殡的前一晚来到为外婆上一炷香。

火葬后，因需处理工作上的事务，我们没有逗留便返回怡保了。我还是很担心妈妈，妈妈跟外婆的感情最深，妈妈的生活作息都是围绕着外婆。现在，外婆走了，妈妈要如何适应没有外婆的生活？？妈妈除了工作，大部分的时间都是陪外婆吃饭和聊天。现在，妈妈不知所措，午餐时，平时到外婆家吃饭如今家已空荡荡。妈妈似乎迷失了方向。我理解妈妈的心情和感受。因此，我天天打电话给妈妈聊聊天，希望日子久了，事情淡了，妈妈会很好！

外婆就像一棵大树！每年农历新年，大家都会回到这棵大树下乘凉，聊天，吃吃美味的食物。大树把大家的关系拉得紧紧的。如今，大树倒了，往后的日子会是这样？？大家还会一起过农历新年吗？？

爱，要及时！下一分钟不懂会发生什么事情，好好地珍惜每一分每一秒，好好地珍惜身边的每一个人！时间不会为谁而停留，地球还是一样在转，爱一个人，不要只是光说，做一些举动让对方知道你很珍惜他。没空，没时间是借口，时间是死的，人是活的，人安排时间，不是时间安排人的生活作息。不要等到机会没了才后悔，不要让自己的生活里有“遗憾”这两个字！爱，真的要及时！

谢谢看错我的人

当我所做的一切，不但没有被珍惜，还被人误解，加上不明不白地被人诬赖，我应该很伤心，也许伤心好几天但是我并没有！在我得知有人说我在吃公司钱时，那一刹那我真的是又气又伤心又觉得可笑。生气是因为我并没有做过这件事，伤心是因为原来我一直以来的信念“能帮就帮”是错的因为有些人真的不值得我去帮，而觉得可笑是因为我这个幸福小女人已变成了贪钱大鳄鱼!


不过那些负面的情绪只不过是在那一瞬间。平时的我应该会大发雷霆，马上打电话，讨回公道或者生闷气好几天但是我并没有。这是因为我学会了不在乎别人的眼光，说法及看法！我也明白了“站得直，坐得稳”的道理所以我没有去澄清，也不想去追究。想想以前一直很在乎别人怎样看我，怎样说我，一切都放在眼里。如果有100分，我一定要做到110分或更高给别人但是我逐渐领悟到这样的生活太辛苦了，太累人了。所以，我选择做一个“拿得起，放得下”的人，这才是真正的快乐！


负面的情绪我不喜欢，也不会让它们逗留太久。负面的情绪让我不能全面地思考，做出不理智的决定。脑筋急转弯时，我喜欢以不同的角度，不同的想法，保持“零”情绪的状态下思考问题所在并且想出各种方案。


今天反而我觉得很开心因为我知道我自己的修行更上一层楼。我也希望大家和我一样会不断地提升自己向往幸福美满的生活!

H.O.M.E.

I found this very meaningful and interesting. It is in Mandarin and I tried to translate it into English. Please pardon me if I didn't translate it well enough.

家，可以大，可以小；能够遮风避雨就好。
家，可以吵，可以闹；没有恩怨情仇就好。
家，可以哭，可以笑；一家和乐开心就好。
家，可以穷，可以富；家人陪伴温暖就好。
家，可以远，可以近；记得回家的路就好。
家，可以老，可以旧；常回家陪爸妈就好。

Home, can be large, can be small; as long as can provide shelter from rain and wind is good enough.
Home, can be noisy, can be trouble; as long as no resentment and revengence is good enough.
Home, can be cry, can be laugh; as long as there is fun and happiness is good enough.
Home, can be poor, can be rich;  as long as there is family to accompany is good enough.
Home, can be far, can be close; as long as you remember the way home is good enough.
Home, can be old, can be dusty; as long as you accompany parents often is good enough.

Teacher, A Noble Job

Thinking back, I started to be a part time tuition teacher when I was at the age of 15. I still remember that I had a pair of Primary 1 and Primary 2 students. I taught them English, Malay, Chinese and Maths. Then, after I obtained my Grade 8 Piano at the age of 17, I taught piano. I stopped teaching when I went to University Putra Malaysia for my Degree of Music Technology.

After graduation, I started to teach again from nursery to kindergarten, to tuition center, to adult lesson and finally teaching in my own center. Yup, I love to teach and enjoy teaching, getting close to toddler, to children, to teenager and even to adult makes me feel younger and wiser.

As a teacher, I get to know all types of people. There are really so many kinds of people which is far beyond your imagination. I gained experience on methods of teaching and also how to communicate and how to deal with different types of people, especially those unreasonable people.

I know that there is always stress in every job but stress in the educational line seems to be greater. There are lots of stress that I have to deal with. I have to deal with results, parents, children, competitor, education department, lesson plans, image, reputation and so much on. So much effort I had put on my passion that I had neglected the signal of my body. I always pushing myself beyond the limit and perhaps, I had pushed myself too hard.

When I was sick, I still attended to classes; when the exam is around the corner, I cancelled my trip, giving free extra classes, hoping that the children could get good results. Being a teacher, I wouldn't ask for any returns as this is the passion that keeps me going on. Of course, sometimes I faced disappointment too. When the children get good results, the parents will say that it is all because their children are smart. When the children get bad results, the parents will say "this teacher doesn't know how to teach". Felt so sad over it but I still keep holding on.

At the beginning of the year, I attended a talk about parenting. That lecturer explained that the parents who is working as a teacher, a jeneral or a politician is a DISASTER to children. Without much explanation, I instantly understood the meaning and luckily, I understood this concept years back before I was expecting my first baby. I am still a "mother" at home and I am not a "teacher" at home.

When my body sent out warning signal to me, I knew that it was time for me to go to a doctor for a check-up. My blood pressure is 130/60, mild migraine became serious migraine, shoulder pain had now became hardened and having heavy flow of period. I took from Western medication to traditional Chinese medication. And this is also the time when the Chinese tabib told me that being a teacher is a DISASTER to your health, they often have high blood pressure, hardened muscle, muscle pain, migraine and irregular period(for female teacher). She is the second person who told me that being a teacher is hard.

I was shocked to find that being a teacher could lead to problems, directly or undirectly. I had a sudden feeling of lost, a sudden feeling of emptiness, a mixture feeling. Then, came the day where I met some of my students who had graduated. They are now doctors, engineers, accountants and so on. They are now profession! Those who are not in the professional field lead a stable and healthy life, at the very least, they are not involved in any crime. I taught them not just in academic but also their attitude toward their life, which I put as my priority in teaching. Should I feel contented? Perhaps "SATISFICATION" is a stronger word to use. For all the sacrified time and energy, it's all worthwhile.

Out of the blue, I strongly feel that being a teacher is NOTHING BUT a NOBLE job. I TEACH FOR A BETTER WORLD!

If I can Choose Again

If I can choose again, I think I will choose to be a housewife. Now that I have a very stable career, not to say success but I'm contented with my work performance, I would like to try something else. I guess human being is like that. When you have something in your hand, you won't cherish it. When you see something which is not in your hand, you want it so much. I think perhaps I already achieved my goal in work now, I wanted something that I haven't achieved. If I have become a housewife, will I ask to become a businesswoman again?? This is so hard. Wouldn't it nice if I can be both. But, deep down in my heart I know that I can only choose one and be the best in it.

A Bad Day!

Sometimes, I do really confused with how we should deal with people relation. If you are soft to someone, he/she will "climb" over you. But then, if you are hard to someone, people will say that you are proud. It is so hard to really deal with people relation.

I will never forget how I deal with a barbarian yesterday. One thing that I felt that I had done wrong is the watery eyes! I shouldn't have those eyes. Those watery eyes make people think that they have won. But, they are wrong! I know that I will have watery eyes when I'm too frustrated. I think this is my only short-coming.

Everyone has his/her own short-coming. But, I think mine causes me lots of problems, especially how people think of me. I do not care in facts on how people think of me. Me, a loser or whatsoever is no longer important! I know myself well. I know I'm someone good! Most important is that I never harm anyone! Isn't it good enough??

I think I should get down with some books on this topic ^^

My Mother

My mother is someone that I felt I would never give enough to. I felt that I owe her alot in every aspect!

To start with, she is a very good mother. I love her so much. She is a very noble mother. We are from poor family. But, my mother no matter how hard and how tired she worked, she tried her best to give us the best education. I still remember the days when she worked in Singapore. In order to earn more, she worked night shift in the Seagate factory, Singapore. Not matter how tired she is, she still cooked for us 3 meals a day. In her mind, she thinks that it is healthier and we can save more money if we eat at home. Then, she would take her afternoon "sleep" before she went to work at night! I still remember that her bus would pick her up at 6p.m. from our house every day. Those money is my mum's hard-earned money. She even signed us up in talent classes like drawing, piano class and so on.

Not only she is very anxious with our education, she is also very anxious about our health and morality. When she had some times, she would tell us and teach us how to become a better person. She told us what is the right thing to do. The lesson she taught us is endless. She taught us whatever she knew, if she doesn't know, she searched in books and taught us!

I really thank her for what she had done for us. If not her, I wouldn't have all the talent. If not her, there will be no me today. I'm so grateful to God for giving us a chance to be mother-and-daughter. I hope to be your daughter again in next life, Mum! I LOVE YOU, MUM!

A Story That Changed Me!

Some days ago, I came across a true story linked by my friend in Facebook. It is written by a mother for her newborn baby girl. The baby girl was diagnosed cancer once she was born. The article is all about what the mother thinks and what she wanted so much to tell her baby girl. All the wording is so touching. In the end, the baby girl died in her mother's arm, which is her last wish (carried by her mother for the very last time). She was 7 months and 3 days old.

I cried when I read the article. I really cried so bad. After reading the article, I had this very strong feeling of seeing my children so bad. Perhaps, I am so scared of losing them. It did somehow change the way I used to think. Yes, it did!

I used to think of giving my children the best especially the best education. Even when they are still in my womb, I already started teaching them. After they were born, I continued educating them in every way. Oh God! I was so so wrong! HEALTHY is the key!

Really! I don't want my children to be genius. I want them to be healthy and happy!

I used to force myself, no matter how tired or how frustrated, I still went on the plan. But now, it is the another way round. Plans still go on but with a more open-heart. I teach them with more patience and love. They love it and eventually, they did learn something which I never expected.

Thank you God for letting me the chance to read the article! If it is not because of the article, I woudn't have changed. I learn how to love my children more, with a more sensible way. And I'm glad that I have the strong will to change.

New Outline

Today, I finally come out with a new outline. With much discussion with my hubby, we have decided the new outline in term of handling the workload and our two beloved princesses.

I'm glad too that I finally have my reading time back. Workload, household chores and taking care of my babies are definitely making me real tired sometimes. But, seeing them growing healthy and happy every day makes me feel that it is afterall worthwhile.

After sending Li Syuen to school and Li Ning to nanny's house, I will begin my day with some reading from the newspaper. Then, I will do some browsing and some research. After picking Li Syuen from school, I will send her to her nanny's house. I will then spend a little of quality time with both of them there. Then, I will have my lunch and continue to work. Everything freeze when I have my classes from 2 to 6. Hopefully, with God being kind to me, I will have some time to prepare dinner for my loved one. I will teach Li Syuen to do her homework and have some play time with Li Ning. We will have some bedtime stories before they have their sleep. I will do my own reading too. After they have fallen asleep, I will then start doing my housework and have a nice chat with Oscar.

This is what basically our new outline. I hope that we can work this out together.

Overwhelm with Work!

As Oscar's business is expanding real fast, we are a little overwhelm with the workload. Things seem out of hand. The workload is unbearable. We are working for more than 10 hours per day.

We used to have the principle of working from 9 to 5. And the rest of the time, we will take care and educate our children. But things got complicated. Time spending with our children is getting less. This is really makes me worried!

I have lesser time to do the teaching material and browsing the web for ideas. I even sacrified my favourite past time. I really need to get back to my reading. I miss that for weeks already. Please give me the strength to hold on and to move on.

I really have to sit down, clear my mind, do some brain storming, discuss and come up with a clear outline of our life. I wouldn't want both the business and my children's activity enrichment to slow down. Hope that my next blog is about the NEW outline.

A New Me

It has been 7 months or so since my last post. I have been busy with my 2 princesses. SyuenSyuen started her school life this January and I can see that she is enjoying her school life. As for NingNing, she has begun to crawl and stand. Since then, I have been busy taking care of them and at the same time, busy with my own work. Yup, what a hectic life to start off the year 2010.

For the last few days, I haven't sleep well, same goes to my husband. It is all because of NingNing. She had high fever for the past 3 days. We are so worried about her. But, thank God she is fine now.

One thing that I notice myself is that my temper really improves alot. I'm used to be a very bad-temper person. I'm a very fast paced person. Once I have something to do, I will get it done within the next few minutes. I do not like to wait. I like to get things done in no time at all without any help from others. Things got worse if I didn't have enough sleep. Something happened to me..MIRACLE, I guess.

SyuenSyuen and NingNing do influence me a lot. To be their mother, I felt blessed. I'm happy and contented that I have them and my husband too. They inspired me to be patient, patient and patient...

I think I change for the best! Even without enough sleep, my temper is still cool. My mood does swing sometimes but all I need is TIME. Time to sort things out, time to cool down, time to rethink and replan. I'm glad that my EQ is improving. I believe that this is the real me! Thank you God for giving me the chance of reborn..I will cherish it, I will cherish myself, I will cherish my family, I will cherish the time..Thank you!

She is my Angel.

A few days ago, I had a serious migraine. So, I asked my husband to massage in order to ease the pain. Then, my daughter pushed away her daddy and massage for me. After that, she rubbed both her hands and pressed her hands on my forehead. I began to laugh as I do understand her meaning. I have been doing so when she had stomache. I will put some ointment on my hands, rubbed and pressed on her stomache.

Then, I asked her "Why you didn't put some ointment on your hands?" She did it as I told her (she pretended to open a bottle and pour some ointment on her hands). Again, I laughed. I'm glad that she does know how to take care of me. She is my Angel.

She loves me!

Things could be different with each pregnancy. During my first pregnancy, I did have a very comfortable time. I didn't have any of the pregnancy sickness such as morning sickness, backache, constipation, tiredness and so on.

With the second one, I have bad morning sickness and backache. But luckily, things get better now. I vomit less now and my backache is getting better. During the time when I had bad morning sickness, I tried many methods. Sometimes, it works sometimes, it didn't. Then, there are times that I was so addicted to mango. Every day, I will eat some mangoes but I will make sure that I didn't overeat as it is not so good for the baby.

One day, when I picked my daughter up from her nanny, her nanny told me an amazing incident. In the evening, the nanny will bring my daughter to go for a walk. During the walk, my daughter saw an aunty busy doing her gardening. There was a mango tree beside the aunty's house. My little baby girl asked the aunty for the mango. She pointed to the mango tree and said, "Mummy wants, mummy wants." Both woman laughed away and the aunty quickly plucked a few mangoes to give her. She is so happy about this. When I picked her up at her nanny's place, she handed my the mangoes. I'm so touched by her reaction! I will remember that moment. She is truly my Angel.