If I can Choose Again

If I can choose again, I think I will choose to be a housewife. Now that I have a very stable career, not to say success but I'm contented with my work performance, I would like to try something else. I guess human being is like that. When you have something in your hand, you won't cherish it. When you see something which is not in your hand, you want it so much. I think perhaps I already achieved my goal in work now, I wanted something that I haven't achieved. If I have become a housewife, will I ask to become a businesswoman again?? This is so hard. Wouldn't it nice if I can be both. But, deep down in my heart I know that I can only choose one and be the best in it.

A Bad Day!

Sometimes, I do really confused with how we should deal with people relation. If you are soft to someone, he/she will "climb" over you. But then, if you are hard to someone, people will say that you are proud. It is so hard to really deal with people relation.

I will never forget how I deal with a barbarian yesterday. One thing that I felt that I had done wrong is the watery eyes! I shouldn't have those eyes. Those watery eyes make people think that they have won. But, they are wrong! I know that I will have watery eyes when I'm too frustrated. I think this is my only short-coming.

Everyone has his/her own short-coming. But, I think mine causes me lots of problems, especially how people think of me. I do not care in facts on how people think of me. Me, a loser or whatsoever is no longer important! I know myself well. I know I'm someone good! Most important is that I never harm anyone! Isn't it good enough??

I think I should get down with some books on this topic ^^

My Mother

My mother is someone that I felt I would never give enough to. I felt that I owe her alot in every aspect!

To start with, she is a very good mother. I love her so much. She is a very noble mother. We are from poor family. But, my mother no matter how hard and how tired she worked, she tried her best to give us the best education. I still remember the days when she worked in Singapore. In order to earn more, she worked night shift in the Seagate factory, Singapore. Not matter how tired she is, she still cooked for us 3 meals a day. In her mind, she thinks that it is healthier and we can save more money if we eat at home. Then, she would take her afternoon "sleep" before she went to work at night! I still remember that her bus would pick her up at 6p.m. from our house every day. Those money is my mum's hard-earned money. She even signed us up in talent classes like drawing, piano class and so on.

Not only she is very anxious with our education, she is also very anxious about our health and morality. When she had some times, she would tell us and teach us how to become a better person. She told us what is the right thing to do. The lesson she taught us is endless. She taught us whatever she knew, if she doesn't know, she searched in books and taught us!

I really thank her for what she had done for us. If not her, I wouldn't have all the talent. If not her, there will be no me today. I'm so grateful to God for giving us a chance to be mother-and-daughter. I hope to be your daughter again in next life, Mum! I LOVE YOU, MUM!

A Story That Changed Me!

Some days ago, I came across a true story linked by my friend in Facebook. It is written by a mother for her newborn baby girl. The baby girl was diagnosed cancer once she was born. The article is all about what the mother thinks and what she wanted so much to tell her baby girl. All the wording is so touching. In the end, the baby girl died in her mother's arm, which is her last wish (carried by her mother for the very last time). She was 7 months and 3 days old.

I cried when I read the article. I really cried so bad. After reading the article, I had this very strong feeling of seeing my children so bad. Perhaps, I am so scared of losing them. It did somehow change the way I used to think. Yes, it did!

I used to think of giving my children the best especially the best education. Even when they are still in my womb, I already started teaching them. After they were born, I continued educating them in every way. Oh God! I was so so wrong! HEALTHY is the key!

Really! I don't want my children to be genius. I want them to be healthy and happy!

I used to force myself, no matter how tired or how frustrated, I still went on the plan. But now, it is the another way round. Plans still go on but with a more open-heart. I teach them with more patience and love. They love it and eventually, they did learn something which I never expected.

Thank you God for letting me the chance to read the article! If it is not because of the article, I woudn't have changed. I learn how to love my children more, with a more sensible way. And I'm glad that I have the strong will to change.

New Outline

Today, I finally come out with a new outline. With much discussion with my hubby, we have decided the new outline in term of handling the workload and our two beloved princesses.

I'm glad too that I finally have my reading time back. Workload, household chores and taking care of my babies are definitely making me real tired sometimes. But, seeing them growing healthy and happy every day makes me feel that it is afterall worthwhile.

After sending Li Syuen to school and Li Ning to nanny's house, I will begin my day with some reading from the newspaper. Then, I will do some browsing and some research. After picking Li Syuen from school, I will send her to her nanny's house. I will then spend a little of quality time with both of them there. Then, I will have my lunch and continue to work. Everything freeze when I have my classes from 2 to 6. Hopefully, with God being kind to me, I will have some time to prepare dinner for my loved one. I will teach Li Syuen to do her homework and have some play time with Li Ning. We will have some bedtime stories before they have their sleep. I will do my own reading too. After they have fallen asleep, I will then start doing my housework and have a nice chat with Oscar.

This is what basically our new outline. I hope that we can work this out together.

Overwhelm with Work!

As Oscar's business is expanding real fast, we are a little overwhelm with the workload. Things seem out of hand. The workload is unbearable. We are working for more than 10 hours per day.

We used to have the principle of working from 9 to 5. And the rest of the time, we will take care and educate our children. But things got complicated. Time spending with our children is getting less. This is really makes me worried!

I have lesser time to do the teaching material and browsing the web for ideas. I even sacrified my favourite past time. I really need to get back to my reading. I miss that for weeks already. Please give me the strength to hold on and to move on.

I really have to sit down, clear my mind, do some brain storming, discuss and come up with a clear outline of our life. I wouldn't want both the business and my children's activity enrichment to slow down. Hope that my next blog is about the NEW outline.

My Way of Teaching

Watching them growing up each every day, I felt that God is really being kind to me. I pray hard to God to have them healthy and happy every day.

I do think that education is very important to them. I teach them when they are still very young. Can you believe that I taught them when they were still in my womb? This might sound ridiculous to some people. But, those who understand this, they knew that I'm doing the right thing. I won't say much about this here.

I do try my best to teach my children from A to Z. I think every parents do the same but with a different way, attitude and demand. For me, I would try many ways to make my children understand what I taught them with a slower pace. I wouldn't shout at them or really MAKE SURE they really understand me. Perhaps, my main aim is letting them LEARNING IN A HAPPY WAY.

I do not demand or ask much on how many or how well they understand what I have taught them. They will learn it IF NOT TODAY, TOMORROW. I think every parents should have this kinda attitude when teaching their children. The lesson will be STRESSED-FREE! It's good for both the children and the parents. At least, it won't hurt the relationship between the parents and the children.

Children learn more and learn well in a stressed-free class. They dare to ask, they dare to tell and most important of all, they are being true to you. They won't lie. I think that it is much more important than being a genius. A good attitude children will eventually do well in their education.

A New Me

It has been 7 months or so since my last post. I have been busy with my 2 princesses. SyuenSyuen started her school life this January and I can see that she is enjoying her school life. As for NingNing, she has begun to crawl and stand. Since then, I have been busy taking care of them and at the same time, busy with my own work. Yup, what a hectic life to start off the year 2010.

For the last few days, I haven't sleep well, same goes to my husband. It is all because of NingNing. She had high fever for the past 3 days. We are so worried about her. But, thank God she is fine now.

One thing that I notice myself is that my temper really improves alot. I'm used to be a very bad-temper person. I'm a very fast paced person. Once I have something to do, I will get it done within the next few minutes. I do not like to wait. I like to get things done in no time at all without any help from others. Things got worse if I didn't have enough sleep. Something happened to me..MIRACLE, I guess.

SyuenSyuen and NingNing do influence me a lot. To be their mother, I felt blessed. I'm happy and contented that I have them and my husband too. They inspired me to be patient, patient and patient...

I think I change for the best! Even without enough sleep, my temper is still cool. My mood does swing sometimes but all I need is TIME. Time to sort things out, time to cool down, time to rethink and replan. I'm glad that my EQ is improving. I believe that this is the real me! Thank you God for giving me the chance of reborn..I will cherish it, I will cherish myself, I will cherish my family, I will cherish the time..Thank you!