A Bad Day!

Sometimes, I do really confused with how we should deal with people relation. If you are soft to someone, he/she will "climb" over you. But then, if you are hard to someone, people will say that you are proud. It is so hard to really deal with people relation.

I will never forget how I deal with a barbarian yesterday. One thing that I felt that I had done wrong is the watery eyes! I shouldn't have those eyes. Those watery eyes make people think that they have won. But, they are wrong! I know that I will have watery eyes when I'm too frustrated. I think this is my only short-coming.

Everyone has his/her own short-coming. But, I think mine causes me lots of problems, especially how people think of me. I do not care in facts on how people think of me. Me, a loser or whatsoever is no longer important! I know myself well. I know I'm someone good! Most important is that I never harm anyone! Isn't it good enough??

I think I should get down with some books on this topic ^^

My Mother

My mother is someone that I felt I would never give enough to. I felt that I owe her alot in every aspect!

To start with, she is a very good mother. I love her so much. She is a very noble mother. We are from poor family. But, my mother no matter how hard and how tired she worked, she tried her best to give us the best education. I still remember the days when she worked in Singapore. In order to earn more, she worked night shift in the Seagate factory, Singapore. Not matter how tired she is, she still cooked for us 3 meals a day. In her mind, she thinks that it is healthier and we can save more money if we eat at home. Then, she would take her afternoon "sleep" before she went to work at night! I still remember that her bus would pick her up at 6p.m. from our house every day. Those money is my mum's hard-earned money. She even signed us up in talent classes like drawing, piano class and so on.

Not only she is very anxious with our education, she is also very anxious about our health and morality. When she had some times, she would tell us and teach us how to become a better person. She told us what is the right thing to do. The lesson she taught us is endless. She taught us whatever she knew, if she doesn't know, she searched in books and taught us!

I really thank her for what she had done for us. If not her, I wouldn't have all the talent. If not her, there will be no me today. I'm so grateful to God for giving us a chance to be mother-and-daughter. I hope to be your daughter again in next life, Mum! I LOVE YOU, MUM!

A Story That Changed Me!

Some days ago, I came across a true story linked by my friend in Facebook. It is written by a mother for her newborn baby girl. The baby girl was diagnosed cancer once she was born. The article is all about what the mother thinks and what she wanted so much to tell her baby girl. All the wording is so touching. In the end, the baby girl died in her mother's arm, which is her last wish (carried by her mother for the very last time). She was 7 months and 3 days old.

I cried when I read the article. I really cried so bad. After reading the article, I had this very strong feeling of seeing my children so bad. Perhaps, I am so scared of losing them. It did somehow change the way I used to think. Yes, it did!

I used to think of giving my children the best especially the best education. Even when they are still in my womb, I already started teaching them. After they were born, I continued educating them in every way. Oh God! I was so so wrong! HEALTHY is the key!

Really! I don't want my children to be genius. I want them to be healthy and happy!

I used to force myself, no matter how tired or how frustrated, I still went on the plan. But now, it is the another way round. Plans still go on but with a more open-heart. I teach them with more patience and love. They love it and eventually, they did learn something which I never expected.

Thank you God for letting me the chance to read the article! If it is not because of the article, I woudn't have changed. I learn how to love my children more, with a more sensible way. And I'm glad that I have the strong will to change.